Aren’t we supposed to eat whatever we want, sleep as long as we like, dress however we want to? Maybe I need to refresh my memory as to what the feminist movement was all about.
Last night I found myself vacuuming at 9:30pm. I couldn’t help it. Thankfully the kids were in bed, and I just hoped that they might still have enough of their babyhood left that somehow the vacuum would be a soothing lullaby at best, at least a deep background noise. It didn’t phase them.
But what kind of woman was I to be running around the house, completely on empty, making sure the dishes got done (or at least finished by husband), pants ironed for the morrow, and floors swept and vacuumed? Then, when it seemed like I couldn’t possibly do more, a commitment raised its hand, and I had to answer. It’s writing after all. I can do it.
So, I’ve decided I may be a crazy woman. Yes, I have a weird obsession with wanting to have a clean house (at least on some standards). Lord knows my house wouldn’t pass a sanitation or white glove test. Fly Lady was onto something when she suggests making sure you keep a clean sink. Not to worry, though; I don’t care what other people’s houses look like.
I’m on Day 2 of this 5:30 am writing adventure. Along with this post, I’ve also written a brief article, thanks to aforementioned commitment. Again, Lord knows I’m tired. Somehow I’m given the energy to do what I find needs to be done. I even managed an hour body sculpting workout yesterday . . . and making a casserole for dinner.
Even working full-time I’m managing to talk to my friends (a little bit), let my children, husband and home know I love them, and take care of myself. It’s exhausting and tremendously rewarding. It sounds crazy, juggling so much, and I just know it wouldn’t be possible if I weren’t also running with grace and blessing.
If we truly think about all we do, we might find that we’re not crazy. We are fueled by passion. If our intentions are good, we are tapped into a greater energy than we ever thought possible. Of course days come when we will or want to sleep until 10am, if we are so lucky, but we can accept it as a gift of renewal and carry on, continuing to move forward with love.
I may seem like a crazy woman at times, to others and to myself. More importantly, I am a blessed woman. If you’re reading this, I’m certain you are blessed, too.