It may not seem like it to you, but for some reason the thought crept into my mind this evening that via my blog I might sound idealistic, even “goody-goody” in my talk about using organic goods, being environmentally friendly, eating well, composting superbly, making my own things, and serving my community and the world to boot. Heaven forbid I ever sound condescending. Please tell me if that is ever the case, and feel free to use all caps (which I really can’t stand!).
So I thought I’d offer a reality check. Some days I’m a chauffeur, driving our ’99 minivan that gets at most 21mpg on the highway, stopping in at Sonic on those jam-packed days for our burger and cherry limeades . . . oh, and fries or tots, too. I shop at our local grocery about as much as at our local co-op. I receive what is given to us, even if I know it’s not fair trade. I eat chocolate and sweets with the best of them, have my own insecurities and worries, and wonder if I’m doing what is best at least several times a day. I procrastinate too much and have an infinite to-do list. . .
I share this with you because I think it’s almost taboo in our society to admit what we think are our downfalls. We seem to be stuck on appearances, facades, and there are many we can choose from if we can wear the mask well. But it’s our true friends that can call us on it — better yet if we admit our hypocrisies or inconsistencies first. Awareness and acceptance of our true selves are our first steps toward true change, right?
I’m becoming increasingly aware of what my shortcomings are, and my husband and I are on our way to outlining our true values. While our reasons are economic in nature, I believe we’ll have some personal revelations along the way, too. That’s a good thing. It’s also a good thing to evaluate your life every once in a while to see what is working for you and what’s not. Perhaps too many layers have built up, and it’s time to be honest with yourself so that you can again be honest with others.
Is there anything that requires more courage than to be yourself, with all your imperfections and thus your beauty? Let’s reflect on that this weekend and not forget to keep the mirror clear.